Baby Room Goodbyes

So, we have decided it's finally time (maybe a little over due) to transition Christian into a big boy bed... and of course a new room comes with it! ;)  Let me first say, that kid LOVES his crib!! He has been the best sleeper ever from the beginning and we have been a tad bit worried to mess that up. But... he's going to be 3 in a few weeks and it's time. He's also not wanting to sleep in a diaper any more so the only way to let him sleep in undies and not have to wake up to him screaming to go to the bathroom over the monitor is to give him a big boy bed.. (and yes, we still have a monitor in his room and probably will until he's at least 16.. don't judge.. hahaha!) His baby room was done in jungle animals and I have the best memories creating the perfect room with Corey during my pregnancy. I remember how exciting it was for us and how much time we spent in there to make it perfect. I hand painted all of the animals and a palm tree on his wall so it's really sentimental for me. Also, he loved those animals on his wall. He started saying goodnight to them when he was one and every night he would have to kiss them goodnight or pet them before going to sleep. So after two years of these animals being apart of our bed time routine, you can completely understand just how hard it was to say goodbye. :(

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We painted over the animals and tree a few nights ago... We literally had to go through saying our "goodbyes" to each one of them. It was for sure the most emotional thing for me since having the boys. We got him a stuffed animal of each animal on his wall and he sleeps with them so he was fine with it and is so excited about his new room!! I, however, spent the night crying on and off... just when I thought I was good, something else would trigger the tears. Every memory of painting it, being pregnant with him, him growing up way too fast, and now starting a whole new chapter with him just got the best of me. I made Corey listen to all the stories I had to share about when I was pregnant with him, crying through them all, and he listened... and probably thought I was a lunatic. haha! After they were all painted over, him and Christian were in there talking and suddenly Christian ran out to me and said, "Mommy... I am SO excited about my new room!!" and then he ran back in to Corey and I heard him say, "okay daddy, I told her!" LOL! I laughed but seriously was thinking what a great husband I have for trying to make me feel better. 

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The room is now repainted and is looking GREAT! Corey got a new paint sprayer and was excited to use it for the first time so this project didn't take any convincing. We went with the same dark gray color that we used in Harrison's room because we are in love with it. Christian is over the top excited about it now and I'm sure he's also loving the fact that he's got to sleep with us this week during the whole process. I'm hoping tonight we make a little more progress and hopefully get his bed converted into a toddler bed. His bedding came in this week and it's perfect! I have been buying things here and there for his new room for a while now and I'm so excited to get it all decorated and see the finished product!

 

Back to work....

It's back to work for me today and I'm struggling.... I don't normally have a terrible time going back after long breaks, not even summer, but this morning has been pretty rough. I've already cried twice, called my mom to cry, and called Corey to cry. They are with Corey today so I'm making him send me pics through out the day to get me by. I know they are home with either their daddy or nana but it doesn't make it easier for some reason. I want to be the one they wake up to and fix them breakfast and lunch.. and put them down for their nap.. and get them up to play. It's just breaking my heart today. I absolutely love my career and I really like having my own thing outside of the home. I never thought I would be the type to stay at home permanently. Teaching is perfect for me because I have my career I love, teaching/ministering to these kids is my passion, and all the time we get off is perfect for having a family. Maybe I'm just in a funk today... Praying it gets easier!

A few pics over the break...

 Are they not the cutest?! Love those baby boys!!

This is how I know it's nap time... haha!

 At the doctor's office for his booster shot.

 This precious baby boy snuggled up to mommy every night daddy had to work... He's my angel baby!

 Not in the mood for a NYE kiss.. hehe

 We had some really pretty weather on a few days and took advantage of it!

Morning work out with momma! haha

Born Again

I absolutely love the song Born Again by Third Day - It's one of the songs that I belt out with my hand up in the air as I drive down the road crying and praising Jesus, not caring what anyone else thinks that passes me. 

There is so much truth to this song and it makes me so emotional. I was young when I was first saved but I remember it and I remember that feeling. It wasn't long ago that I decided to rededicate my life and this song hits the nail on the head when it says, "It feels like I'm born again.... It feels like I'm breathing for the very first time."  That is EXACTLY what it feels like! God's love for us is so unlike any other love and it's a feeling that no one on earth can give us. This song also makes me so emotional because it reminds me of the day Corey was saved. I feel blessed to have shared that moment with him.. It's a moment I will never ever forget!! I can't wait to share those precious moments with our boys. We pray for their salvation every day and for the Lord to guide their little hearts.

"And I'm convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God's love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow - not even the powers of hell can separate us from God's love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below - indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." -Romans 8:38-39